Side effects are already taking on me. Early morning without a proper breakfast due to poor appetite. What's going on ERNEST?

Just some things, thinking of what I've to face today, a freaking stupid module, stupid facilitator, then followed by the next half of the day without you. All these just taken effect on me, Today is another "diet" day. =.= Can anyone help me get my appetite back?

*My appetite shows my mood* :(

every moment, i think of you,
every thought of you, my heart beat an extra time,
every extra beat, is how much you mean to you,
one day, i die because you mean too much to me.

-Ernest, signing off with a poor poor poor appetite, *someone get my appetite back first k?*, my heart is already beating an extra or 2 time for you. have yours?

Ernest Pwi blogged on 8:11 AM
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Have anyone ever remember their happiest moments of their life? Who you spent it with? Where? When? So and so. Well, I remember mine, and I don't want to lose these memories, that's why, I am still living right in this world. Are yours keeping you alive?

Today, had a tiring day, studied, went home to have a short nap, then went to help agnes with her Audition problem. Right now, I feeling like my heart there, like got one big big rock weighing on it. Like cannot breathe properly, pray my lungs start breathing properly before I go to bed, otherwise, I wouldn't be able to catch enough rest.

I also do not have appetite to eat!. =.=, feel hungry, but scared can't eat finish.

You give me happy memories to keep,
I've already used a lock to keep them locked down.
Now, these memories are gonna stay in my heart forever.

-Ernest, signing with a hungry stomach, yet a heavy heart, a mouth that scares of not able to eat finish. :)

Ernest Pwi blogged on 11:11 PM
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Ok, sorry people, hmmm, seems like someone hacked into my account wors!, shall name the person **ANONYMOUS**. xD, from the writing style and the way to blog, ya, you will understand that it is not ernest who wrote that post. xD, hmmm, but, thankyou **ANONYMOUS**. WHAT ABUSIVE AURA BTW!, ernest is super nice de lo, is people provoke my aura out. :)

YES YES, **ANONYMOUS** seem to understands me most, with the happy happy mood and things, almost everything about me, **ANONYMOUS** stalked me. AND, OMG, awesome teammate instead of teammates ba? Well, dennis is a good teammate and a good jogging partner.

**ANONYMOUS** is COOL

you seems to be able to predict every reason behind every action of mine.
did you understand me well, or was it just too obvious?

-Ernest, signing off, happy heart, happy mind, happy me.

Ernest Pwi blogged on 11:51 PM

lols, HI ALL xD
hmmm, im in a very good mood today cause im in a good mood! xD
i figured out stuff, and yes, think that my temper isn't veryy good.
ABUSIVE AURA ME xD hahahaha.
do i sound crazy? hmmm, lols, sorry for th previous short post readers, i hope i can post more, but im not sure what t say now. awesome.
basically, played ball today, more sweat and sweat. have awesome teammates like dennis and agnes haha. okay i shant post anymore, lols.

ERNEST th saddist xD

Ernest Pwi blogged on 11:35 PM
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Oops, sorry people, don't have much feel to blog so much today, SO i'll just post some things that i've done recently. xD.

1. Went to expo and bugis yesterday.
2. Movie-d at Causeway Point(Happy Flight)
3. Went to play in the morning at 515
4. Went to yishun with bike
5. Blah blah blah.

That's all, xD, hmmm, i'll compensate the next time ba, sorry my readers, :)

a song, I still... by Backstreet Boys,

seem to said the first part of my story, when we ain't close.

Right now, have you seen the shape of my heart?

it might not die.

-Ernest, signing off, a heart not seen, the mind drowned with sorrow songs,

feeling so inferior with all the happenings.

Ernest Pwi blogged on 7:42 PM
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Maybe I shall introduce one person who came to my house today!, Joseph Go. Bloody idiot, keep gl saying that he thought I got black ink(mo shui), why leh? Because he say my italic words were quite chim yet, then he just saw me copy one quote from the Net, then say I copy everything. Sibei GL, think I will whack him ltr, just beside me only. xD, maybe I shall start off with the first few quotes I took from the Net, FIRST FEW TIMES ONLY OK!. :)

Love never die a natural death, It dies because we don't know how to replenish its sources, It dies of blindness, errors and betrayals. It dies with illness and wounds. It dies of weariness, of witherings and of tarnishing.

This quote kinda give a freaking good explanation of how the feeling between 2 parties can actually die off. Well well, the idiot was just repeating whatever i was copying on the net, like a F**KER. L

everytime, when i start to think over what people say,
my thoughts starts running,
questions jumped from one end to another,
when that happened, my mind is totally confused.
my happy times were only when you made me happy,
my unhappy times starts with all the doubts.
im sorry.

-Ernest, signing off,

Ernest Pwi blogged on 5:17 PM
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Being having different moods since Oct till now, alot. And I only realise such mood changes when I started eating, my regular diet will be normal, if very happy, I'll be eating like alot and alot!! But, will get fat, so Happy, also must be able to exercise more. When I feel kinda sad, down, missing someone, my eating behaviour starts to be lesser. Therefore, it causes me to be aware of what I was doing at the point of time, and think while eating. *Sounds difficult right? Eating also must think*.

Sleeping hours has really been affected!. When having the negative moods, it kinda cause me not able to sleep well, till these few days, whereby I can restore my sleep, freaking alot, even if I don't literally sleep, my rest is still there, cause my rest and leisure fills it up.

the cloudy fog seem to have cleared,
when we sat and chat the day before,
it feels so happy,
when i chatted with you,
cause those happy things happened between me and you.
everything that happen, hear, done,
memories kept,
the lock there is difficult to unlock.
probably, i am not goign to unlock it.

Ernest Pwi blogged on 9:48 AM
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